Vicky Pattison breaks down over break up

Vicky Pattison’s world was turned upside down in November when her fiancé John Noble was photographed with another woman - immediately ending their relationship.

In an exclusive TV interview ahead of new documentary Vicky Pattison: The Break Up, Vicky broke down in tears as she recalled how her world turned upside down following her split with fiancé John Noble.

Explaining why she continued with the documentary, Vicky explained, “The wheels were already in motion to make this show - it was meant to be about love and everything, but also just about my life. When the chips get down and life gets hard I’m not the sort of person to throw in the towel.”

She added, “When I started, I didn’t see light at the end of the tunnel. I just felt really broken and really lost and I didn’t know where it was going to take us - I’m so pleased I’m not still lying in bed drinking gin and eating Pop Tarts out of the box, that’s a real positive! But it became more than just about me, it became about me wanting to show women who have been through something similar, that although it’s rubbish and although it hurts and feels like you might not be able to get through it… you can.”

Talking about her relationship with John, Vicky revealed, “I was probably the most shocked out of anyone… I consider myself to be quite an intelligent woman, but obviously love is blind. I didn’t know there was anything wrong. I didn’t know that he wasn’t happy. I didn’t think he had this in him.”

She added, “We were due to film at a wedding venue and sign the contracts and everything, and that’s when the news broke… so a very different day to the one I had planned.”

On the break up being so public, Vicky said, “Heartbreak is heartbreak, the hurt is the same. It made me deal with it differently. I would’ve had a lot more duvet time if I didn’t know everyone was watching. But it felt like I was trying to set an example - I didn’t want to let anybody win. I felt like I had to take control. He’d taken away so much stuff, I didn’t have a fiancé anymore, I considered him my best friend, so I didn’t have that either…”

Getting emotional, Vicky continued, “The future I had planned as well…. So I felt like I had to take control over my career. We’ve spoken probably a handful of times and he has instigated most of that contact to be fair… but it’s not positive, he’s not really remorseful, there’s no guilt. He doesn’t think he’s done anything wrong. Says he didn’t cheat and says it was set up and said it was my fault because of the position I’m in...”

Revealing how she is feeling now, Vicky said, “The most commonly used phrase I’ve had said to me throughout this time is ‘you’ve dodged a bullet’... and it's hard to see it at the time when you’re hurting and you’re angry, and you wish you could turn back time and be happy and still together… but if this is something he’s had in his locker, it’s better I knew now before I was married to him, before I had kids, but I’d be making a decision not only for myself but for my children in mind.”

On her engagement ring reports, Vicky said, “He wants it back. Will I give it to him? Yeah, of course he can have it back… what am I going to do with it? I haven’t got the heart to sell it. I feel like I wanna move on. The show goes out tonight and as of tomorrow, I don’t want to talk about him anymore… I still feel angry for what he did.”

This Morning reached out to John Noble for comment, but he hasn't replied.