Eddy Shah assisting Savile investigation suspect

Every night I worked out different ways of committing suicide to help me go to sleep, actually," he said.

I was very low, the only time I was lower than that in my life was when we were told (Mr Shah's wife) Jennifer had three months to live all those years ago. You cannot describe the depths you go to.

You just want to fall down and never get up again, you think 'maybe the stress will kill me and that'll sort the problem out'. I wasn't frightened of dying, let me put it that way.