ITV Border survey reveals more than half of women with a postnatal illness have suicidal thoughts

Jessica shortly after she had given birth Credit: Jessica Addicott

An exclusive report has revealed that more than one in two women with postnatal depression in the ITV Border region have thought of taking their own life.

In a special investigation by ITV News and the postnatal depression charity PANDAS, a thousand women were asked about their experiences.

Here, one woman shares her story:

For six years Jessica Addicott struggled to bond with her eldest son.

The negative feelings towards her child started during pregnancy - which intensified when she found out she was expecting a boy.

“I thought if it's a girl then I could possibly savour some sort of relationship and have a mother and daughter relationship. But then I found out it was a boy and it made me feel a lot worse.”

For six years Jessica struggled to bond with her eldest son Credit: ITV News

But when Jessica gave birth, postnatal depression took hold and she became more unwell.

Jessica is not alone. A survey commissioned by ITV and PANDAS asked 1,000 women what experiences they'd had and the results are shocking.

In the Border region 51% of women who'd had a postnatal illness said they'd had suicidal thoughts.

In fact, suicide is a leading cause of death for women during pregnancy and one year after birth.

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But sadly not all women get the help or advice they need.

Our survey showed:

In the Border region 88% of parents felt there isn't enough support.

And 36% said they needed to visit another health-care professional or make several visits before diagnosis and assistance.

Tina and her daughter Credit: ITV News

Tina was diagnosed with postnatal depression after becoming overwhelmed with feelings of failure.

It became so bad she gave up her job as a teacher. But it was only by chance she found help.

This is something the 30-year-old says needs to change.

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Jessica says she finally has a bond with her son. But says it's now time to break down the hidden pain of giving birth.