Phillip Schofield 'afraid to leave the house' amid fallout from younger ITV colleague affair
The former This Morning presenter said the fallout from the revelations had been 'relentless' as ITV News' Martha Fairlie reports
Phillip Schofield has revealed he is afraid to leave the house after the revelation of his affair with a younger male colleague.
In a new interview with The Sun he said he feared being spat on in the street and that he was currently getting by “hour by hour”.
The former This Morning presenter, 61, previously said he had “lost everything” after admitting to the affair, and that the fallout had had a “catastrophic effect” on his mind.
In a new interview, published on Friday, he told The Sun: “I do not know a time I will be able to walk out of the door.
“I don’t have any spirit. My friends tell me, ‘It will get better’. It won’t. Not now. Not this one.”
He added: “I am getting by hour by hour. I have got my girls and my friends.”
He also urged the media to leave his former lover “alone now”.
But he also spoke to the BBC's Amol Rajan about the "catastrophic effect" that weeks of criticism has had on his wellbeing, likening the attention to Caroline Flack's online abuse in the weeks prior to her February 2020 suicide.
A coroner ruled the former Love Island host, 40, took her own life after learning that prosecutors were going to press ahead with an assault charge on her then-boyfriend Lewis Burton.
Schofield said on Friday: “Do you want me to die? Because that’s where I am."
Information for anyone affected by the issues raised in the interview can be found at the bottom of this article
He said he saw “nothing ahead” of him and he had to talk about his career in television “in the past tense”.
"It is relentless, and it is day after day, after day after day," he added. "If you don't think that that is going to have the most catastrophic effect on someone’s mind… I have lost everything."
He praised his daughters Ruby and Molly for “guarding him”, saying: "Last week, if my daughters hadn't been there, I wouldn't be here.
"They've been by my side every moment because they're scared to let me out of their sight."
He added he understands "how Caroline Flack felt" when thinking about how much more someone can take when it comes to public criticism.
"I know that’s a selfish point of view," Schofield added.
"But you come to a point where you just think, how much are you supposed to take? If all of those people that write all that stuff, do they ever think that there’s actually a person at the other end?”.
He also expressed feeling as though his career is over following the fallout: “I see nothing ahead of me but blackness and sadness and regret and remorse and guilt."
“I’m not in television any more, I don’t know what I am even remotely if I get through this," he added.
“I don’t know even remotely how I move forward… what am I going to do with my days?
“I did something very wrong and then I lied about it consistently and you can’t live with that. How do you live with that?”
Asked by Rajan, the BBC’s media editor, if he was strong enough to do the interview, he replied: “I have to.”
And when pressed as to why, Schofield said in reference to his former colleague: "Because there is an innocent person here who didn’t do anything wrong, who is vulnerable and probably feels like I do.
"And I just have to say, stop with him… leave him alone."
In Schofield's interview with the BBC, others details revealed included:
The first time the pair had any "kind of sexual contact" was when the young man was 20 and their first romantic encounter occurred in his ITV dressing room;
He dismissed claims by GB News presenter Dan Wootton that he had been responsible for him being fired as a contributor on ITV show Lorraine, saying it came from Wootton's "utter, total hatred" for him;
Schofield said homophobia was a factor in people who disapproved of the affair, adding: "If it was male-female then it wouldn't be such a scandal";
The pair were not "boyfriends," he clarified: “I was really in a mess with my sexuality at the time and it just happened";
The last time they had contact was a few weeks ago when Schofield organised a lawyer for his former lover because he needed “independent” support;
He reiterated Holly Willoughby "did not know" about the affair, adding it “was the one secret in our sanctuary that was never mentioned".
Schofield resigned from ITV last week and was dropped by his talent agency YMU after admitting to the “unwise but not illegal” relationship.
In his first interviews since leaving the broadcaster and This Morning, he also denied claims he had “groomed” the man.
Temporary This Morning hosts Allison Hammond and Dermot O'Leary commented on the interview as they aired clips on Friday Morning.
'I'm just finding it really painful': Watch the moment Allison Hammond becomes visibly emotional in response to Phillip Schofield's BBC interview
Hammond was visibly emotional as they showed Schofield feeling "saved" by his daughters and struggling with his mental health.
Hammond said to broadcaster Gyles Brandreth and chief leader writer at the Observer Sonia Sodha: "I'm just finding it really painful because obviously I loved Phillip Schofield and it's weird because I still love Phillip Schofield."
"He without sin casts the first stone... I don't want to say anything bad.
"There's so much a man can take, isn't there? And I don't want any death in this situation."
The former Dancing on Ice presenter told The Sun newspaper the fallout from his secret affair had brought “the greatest misery” to his former lover’s “totally innocent life”.
And he also denied there had ever been a “feud” between him and his former co-presenter and “TV sister” Holly Willoughby.
“I’ve lost my best friend. I let her down,” he told The Sun.
He revealed the text he last sent to Willoughby: "The last time we had a conversation was when I texted Holly and said, ‘Don’t reply’ – this was after the statement last week – ‘Don’t reply, you’re probably not allowed to, but I am deeply deeply sorry that I lied to you.'"
The pair had presented This Morning together since 2009, with Willoughby due to return to the show on Monday after the half-term break, having taken an early holiday after news of Schofield’s departure emerged.
Hammond and O’Leary have been among the presenters hosting the programme in recent weeks.
Schofield went on to say that his “greatest apology” over the fallout from the affair was to his former lover and that he would “die sorry” for what he had done.
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