Kelly Osbourne on friend Demi Lovato: 'Every day I fight to stay clean. I can’t imagine what Demi’s going through'
GUEST LOOSE WOMAN KELLY OSBOURNE TALKS CANDIDLY ABOUT ADDICTION
In an emotional chat with the Loose Women, guest panellist Kelly Osbourne spoke honestly about her own addiction battles in light of reports that her friend Demi Lovato's alleged overdosed, saying the singer needs people to 'show love and pray for her'.
'I will never speak on behalf of Demi because that wouldn’t be right,' Kelly said. 'I can only share about what I’ve been through and what I know from myself. Relapse is one of the hardest things we face as an open addict who has gone through the programme and turned their life around. People need to know rehab doesn’t fix you, it just helps you to get yourself on the right track. You’re never fixed. You spend your whole entire life doing everything you can to never pick up and use again.'
On her own battle with addiction Kelly added: 'I could be addicted to absolutely anything - biggest was probably drugs and alcohol, though. As an addict, when I wanted to relapse, when I wanted to use, I could have sober companions, I could have my parents there, I could have my best friends, I could have people who love and care and would do anything for me. If I wanted to get it, I would get it. It’s got nothing to do with the people around you per se. When you want it, you will get it. The sad part about addiction, it does not discriminate. It doesn’t matter who you are, where you come from, what you believe in. it takes hold of anyone and everyone if it can.'
Kelly continued: 'it’s an obsessive compulsive disorder, it’s mental health, it’s something that I believe I was born with. I was doing things from such a young age that weren’t normal.'
Talking about her own recovery, Kelly told Stacey, Andrea and Janet, 'I reached a spiritual low, I was so unbelievably miserable, I didn’t care if I lived anymore or not. I didn’t care what happened to me, I didn’t care who I woke up next to. I just didn’t care about anything ... For me, it was either I was going to die or I was going to get help. I decided that I wanted to live, that life is worth living and that I have an incredible family and friends and why am I allowing myself to be so miserable?'
Kelly has continued to be open and vocal about her own struggle with addiction in the hope of showing people that there is no quick fix.
'Every day I fight to stay clean. I fight and do whatever I have to do to be a better person. I am so comfortable being numb and numbing myself. I never did drugs to party. I did drugs because I hate feeling… even if it was good things and happy, I didn’t think I deserved it,' Kelly said.
She also stressed to the audience that Demi would be going through an emotional rollercoaster following her alleged overdose, and would need positivity and support on the road to recovery: 'There’s no such thing as embarrassment when you’re an addict. You skip that and go straight to shame. You shame yourself so hardcore. I can’t imagine what Demi’s going through right now even though I know what it’s like to have the whole world talk about you in your most vulnerable state. People need to just show love and pray for her and know that it’s OK, just get back on track again.'
Watch the video for the full emotional chat with Kelly about addiction.